The fact that I have NO ONE to talk to. I feel like I can’t even talk to my boyfriend. I don’t think I ever felt this alone in my entire life.
I can’t even get myself in therapy fast enough (who the fuck knows what will happen in 6months, I could have attempted suicide or developed an eating disorder by then) and I can’t afford medication because I don’t claim benefits because JSA is too much pressure and I do occasional agency work and that means I’m not applicable to receive it for free.
What the fuck do I even do with myself? I’m completely lost.